I am having major difficulty deciding what I want to be any more. I used to think I knew. I wanted to make money doing what I like. In some ways I have.
Mostly I'm struggling with my identity as an artist. For many years I didn't know what that meant to me. I didn't even really consider myself an “artist”. I was I suppose but I always joked about being an art whore. Will draw for food and whatnot. Ha ha get it?
Lately I've been meeting people that have embraced the art monkey in much more real ways than I ever have. It's like I've been waiting for a go ahead to do my "art" as pretentious as that sounds.
It's a real conundrum. I remember thinking many years ago that by the time I was 40 I would have much better handle on who I was. I guess that's the rub huh?
I have decided to focus more on art. In whichever form that ends up taking. I think as redesign the web site (which is what I’m doing) I'm going to use the Blog section of it for focus on art. So as self indulgent as that may seem that's where I'm going.