It was Logan's eighteenth birthday this weekend. I wasn't there. It really kind of depressed me but there is not a lot I could do about it. He seems good. Better than he has in a long time actually. We all grow up right? Mary Belle and Michael went up to surprise him.
When Logan was one and half years old he told me that he knew John Lennon quite well and that God was love. Now he tells me things like it's immature to put smiley faces in email :^( I love him either way;^)
I read The Da Vinci Code this weekend. I found it a rather simple mystery and an even simpler writing style but the concepts behind it were heady. Ideas like; Jesus wasn't divine but a human prophet, He was married to Mary Magdalene, that He fathered children whose bloodline continues on today. That kind of thing.
I've spent the last three+ years reading anything I could find on early Christianity. It wouldn't surprise me in the least if Constantine's bible were a bit off the mark. In fact I'm positive that it is. The idea that we as humans could possibly understand God or the concept of that kind of intelligence seems at best, remote.
It never seems to stop people though. I've had many a conversation with fundamentalists that swear that God would never let His word be misconstrued. I’ve always had the impression that the Bible seems to be missing a good through line. Like there are pieces missing. That and third act really falls apart. Well in truth there are pieces missing but you have to be a heretic to believe that. Avert your eyes and you may yet be saved!
I truly believe that Jesus lived, that he amazed people and that once He died -the carpet baggers showed up and ruined a really gentle plan by promoting their own ideas. But that’s just how it goes sometimes. Well it’s still going that way. Just ask Islam.
I do know that I’ve never feared God. I’ve only felt love, strength and guidance. I’ve met people that said they were men of God, which professed to have been saved. In general they seem to be people that have done things so horrible to themselves or others that blind devotion to an ancient Roman emperor seems like their only way out. I suppose if that was the case you would have no alternative but fear God.
Another option might be to take a little responsibility for yourself and your actions -but no, change is difficult and requires effort, most people want to be lead and told what to do and how to think. Maybe Jesus was just asking too much of us?