Personally about the only thing I feel like I'm good at is being able to work through just about anything. I worry sometimes that my identity, as an artist is all I am. I think that is why I am so hard on myself about it. (the finished art) That and the fact that this pretty much all I do. I think I need to get out of the studio more and have a life outside of the work.
In an effort to do this I'm going to hit an AA meeting today. I haven't attended AA regular for a few years now. I've been so isolated here in Nevada and the people I've met have not helped at all in my opinion of the place. There a lot of self-indulgent warped people here and I always seem to find them. Moreover they seem to fuck me over in some way. Sometimes big and sometimes small but it's a sad place. I'm trying to remain more positive and work through all this shit but it's really a constant struggle.
Sometime I wish I was Forest Gump. That I could just view things simply and without cynicism. I wouldn’t have that haircut though.
Also thank you folks that have posted on my comments and emailed me. It’s very heart warming. Gives me hope.
Posted by shawn at February 18, 2003 09:09 AM